The mind can go either direction under stress-toward positive or toward negative: on or off. Think of it as a spectrum whose extremes are unconsciousness at the negative end and hyperconsciousness at the positive end. The way the mind will lean under stress is strongly influenced by training.
{Frank Herbert, Dune}
I had my first ketamine infusion today, and it was extremely unpleasant like a very bad trip. Ketamine is a dissociative, and I found myself in a terrifying psychic space where time had little meaning and each thought rippled further into a constrictive prison of the mind. The whole fundamental nature of existence and reality, undefined and yet forever inescapable, seemed to dissolve into a chaos of endless fear. I had at least 2-3 panic attacks and was sure I was going to have a heart attack and die. I managed to ride it out, but I'm anticipating tomorrow's appointment with trepidation.
