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The whole situation has stressed me out to know end. I'm feeling some distance with my family, and I don't really feel there's anyone I can call to commiserate with. I spent the entire weekend busting my hump trying to clean up my apartment to make my environment more conducive to positive change on top of continuing to hit the gym Saturday, Sunday and today before work. I gave serious thought about breaking my sobriety today. I thought about doing worse. But it would just be "I'll show you!" acting out, and I'm better than that. As it is, I'm going to take my meds and just go to bed.