Seeking joy and meaning in a joyless mind and meaningless existence

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


I try, but see no benefit in the trying.  Every time I try to improve my lot in life, I'm sure tragedy is just around the corner.  I'm certain that I'm about to drop dead from a heart attack (I can even feel one coming on when the panic overtakes me), and all of my effort is wasted time and energy.